vann

2009-11-15T17:54:00.001+08:00

wa.. its been some time that i didn't update my blog..

but i still don't know what to update..

hahahahahaha...

bye bye..

2009-10-03T13:20:00.001+08:00

Happy Moon-cake Festival guys..

2009-09-04T19:29:00.000+08:00

GRADUATE LO!!!

2009-08-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

Garry Lin>> Update just for you.. hahahaha...

my lovely new Baileys.. keke....

my new notebook from Gap.. hahaha.... jean cover leh..

my new blue blue cap.. love it so much..

my new big big T-shirt pajamas... super duper big..

guess what is that?? its white rose flower.. pity that flower.. lols..

this is a big candle, me and brandon went for prawning.. then he forgot to bring back.. when we go for the next round.. guess what.. the malay girl give back him.. wrote "China Punya" lols..

prawning with our Baileys.. enjoyment session.. yummy and windy.. lols..

my prawn.. hahaha.. but i choose to stop prawning anymore.. cause killing ma, got kama wan leh.. hahahaha...

my Singapore Sling.. lols.. in front of my office.. drink after work.. lols..

my lovely Baileys... haha..

i know i know..

VANNESSA IS SUPER ALCOHOLIC... hahaha....

i found more funny pics in my phone.. update next day k..

got lots of Helena's funny pics.. wahahahaha....

2009-08-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

just bought this Ice Wine with Brandon recently..

to drink with Eunice and Big Brother Jo together..

but end-up we drank Vodka rather than Ice Wine and Singapore Sling..

the main point is here.. haha..

sorry Brandon, Eunice, i'm too thirsty.. lols..

but but i saved some for you both..

i just drank two glasses but its already half a bottle.. lols..

i just feel drinking tonight.. for happiness and also unhappiness..

i can sense that she has made her decision.. i shall not disturb her anymore..

as a friend, her decision i will always support and respect..

if this what she want, and it will make her happy.. why not accept??

i got an offer job today.. gonna starts work on this coming Monday..

what i have to do this few days...

continues with my business plan..

go watch Harry Potter with my family..

clothes.. needed formal clothes desperately..

life gonna be normal started on Monday.. "Sleep Early Wake Up Early"

Yes.. Ice Wine taste too SWEET.. but Not bad..

Brandon Goh>> i'm waiting for Baileys..

SUPER ALCOHOLIC VANNESSA.. wahhahahaha..

2009-07-28T21:35:00.003+08:00

hey.. check this out.. super funny...

Ah Hua's Interview..

Ah Hua went for a job interview to be a secretary.

When the manager saw Ah Hua's colourful attire and gold, white-highlighted hair, his mind is screaming, "NOT THIS WOMEN!!!". Nevertheless, he still had to interview Ah Hua.

So he told Ah Hua, "If you can form a sentence using the words that I give you, then I will give you a chance!

The words are . "GREEN, PINK, YELLOW, BLUE, WHITE, PURPLE and BLACK"

Ah Hua thought for a while and said,

"I hear the phone GREEN, GREEN, GREEN, then i go and PINK up the phone, I say YELLOW... BLUE's that? WHITE did you say?

Aiyah, wrong numberlah... Don't PURPERLY disturb people and don't call BLACK, ok?

Kum Siah.

The Manager Fainted...

lols..

2009-07-28T18:40:00.001+08:00

my poor car.. haizz..

i think i'm not suitable to drive.. haizz..

2009-07-27T20:25:00.003+08:00

Dangerous Dangerous...

LDP Puchong Jaya Interchange:

Major crack lines found underneath the bridge..

I bet that not much people take this seriously (except the concessionaire)

Although thousands were using this bridge everyday either through the top or passing underneath it. The possible reason is that these defects do not causing anything fall down YET.

Scary yea..

Be careful yea..

if can better don't use that bridge..

2009-07-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

you guys should know vann do not like medicine or any pills...

but today.. i wanna introduce a supplementary called Super Lutein for you guys..

seriously, this supplement super effective..

now.. my whole family eating, started with my grandfather first.. after he tried the supplement.. he asked us all to eat..

i tried a few days ago.. now i felt that my eye power has decrease..

coincidence is i tried before my period.. no period pain at all..

read the info below..

Super Lutein contains five of the most important types of carotenoids, five types of the most essential nutrients based on the human needs and combines this vegetative function by the best proportion.

Lutein is an essential nutrient for humans but it is unable to synthesize in the human body. Apart from the good result for human eyes, Super Lutein also shows very good results for the skin, uterus, liver, blood, kidney, head and stomach.

Super Lutein mainly consists of six carotenoids

lutein
zeaxanthin
alpha - Carotene
beta - Carotene ( a Vitamin A precursor )
lycopene
crocetin

Complemented with nutrient supplements such as

cassis polyphenol
vitamin E
DHA

Carotenoids are commonly found in yellow and green vegetables such as: cabbage, lettuce, broccoli, endives, asparagus, spinach, nettles, kiwi fruits, green apples, beans, peas, parsley, pepper grass etc. and are vital nutrients for health.

Super Lutein also contains

blueberry extracts ( anthocyanins and Vitamin C )
vitamin B complex

Super Lutein is a health food supplement containing balanced blend nutrients from yellow and green fruits.

*A nutritious, function food β - Carotene ( a Vitamin A precursor ) not only maintains night vision, but is also nutrient for healthy skin and mucus membranes.

..................................................................................................................................

at first that i don't really trust got such good supplementary.. but know i believe it.. now my whole family introducing to all my relative to eat it.. now even no enough medicine for them.. cause this supplementary got limited purchase.. member only can buy 5 bottles a month..

go know more about this supplementary.. if you wanna buy or try let me know.. i will let my sis know..

2009-07-22T18:14:00.002+08:00

wahahahaaa...

vann vann first time drive out to Subang alone ooo..

cool leh.. keke...

i felt amazing.. incredible.. lols...

but after i'm out.. i don't feel like driving out anymore..

because parents worried..

don't really like that..

but still damn cool.. vann drive to ss17 Neways.. then drive Yinn back to condo then 3k for badminton then head to home... hohohoho..

thats all.. bb.. hahahaha...

2009-07-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

Work or Study???

MBA.. i will study just matter of time..

i personally think i should work first then only MBA..

what do you think???

i can save up some money for MBA..

i can gain experiences from working and it is easier for me to persuade MBA by that time..

recently, i think i'm thinking too big or too far away.. while i should step by step from starting point..

agreed??

let me find a job first..

international firm anot doesn't matter..

can let me learn and gain experiences can edi..

salary isn't a matter also.. i don't spend much also.. i do not need to support anybody..

yeah.. i make up my mind..

currently i got two job interested..

one is Standard Chartered' leasing and hire purchasing..(interested in this more)

another one is Uncle Michael's Sales for Antivirus..

but Standard Chartered... don't know have to wait till when..

Uncle Michael.. if i call up.. shouldn't be a problem..

*-_-*

2009-07-18T14:54:00.003+08:00

ok ok.. updates..

erm...

what i have been up to..

hmmm..

eat.. sleep.. watch movie.. shit.. wahahaha...

ok ok ok.. come back come back..

this year is quite a good year for me..

every year i went once for Copa Iba.. is a competition of captain ball.. every year i joined Eunice and Brandon's church.. i have been joining with them for 4 years if not mistaken.. FINALLY.. we got champion this year.. senior got Champion.. junior got second place.. first time got a place for the church.. later i'm going Eunice's house for celebration.. wahahaha..

another good news was.. my result released..

i'm very happy to announce here that i got 3Ds for all of my subjects..

and ofcause make me happier is.. friends that study with me.. all of them.. they got very good for their results too..

i have been telling them non-stop that i'm glad, lucky, happy to have them as my study group-mates.. its true that my results improved alot alot.. Thanks guys.. love you guys so much..

i'm very happy to have you guys around..

but ofcause.. i'm sad too.. because i'm gonna graduate without you guys.. no chance for me to study with you guys anymore.. no chance for me to gambate with you guys for the last sem.. sob sob sob.. BUT.. hahaha.. i graduate first.. i move on my second stages of life first.. if i got a job.. i will have around 4 to 5 months Salary.. i can SHOPPING SHOPPING.. wahahaha...

ok.. finish writing.. will update soooooooon.....

2009-06-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

yeah.. finish exam edi...

i'm graduating on september..

i'm not a student nor fall under unemployment yet..

given whether i pass my exam..

lols..

tomorrow going Kuantan for family trips..

so no need to visit this blog for a moment..

2009-05-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

exam coming..

bye bye for one month..

come back after one month..

don't waste your time come in here..

-_- keke...

2009-05-09T14:53:00.002+08:00

yeah.... i'm going genting to celebrate mother's day..

hohoho... mom going bring me to casino.. lols..

with my grandma and grandpa and uncles and aunties.. keke..

but shit.. my assignment..

die lo.. tomorrow somemore need to go pd..

shit.. when can i finish.. due next week.. die..

and got that stupid software to track plagiarism...

so have to submit earlier...

haizz...

keke.. bb lo...

2009-05-08T19:57:00.003+08:00

shit man.. need to go Pork Dickson for dinner.. so damn far.. haizz..

somemore go with uncle.. parents go another dinner..

suppose parents arrange today go PD to stay for three days two nights.. because grandpa need to go dinner.. but end up fully book.. so thought no need to go.. somemore didn't tell me that i need to attend the dinner.. haizz.. aarrggg...

ok.. latest update.. i bought a silver vios.. my mom, dad and sis like silver.. haizz.. sobsob..

mom said colour up to my choice.. but but mom complain alot about black, then keep on say good thing about silver.. haizz.. nvm lo.. listen to them.. parents ma.. must listen, sayang and respect..

but but the car can't arrive on my birthday.. haizz... lagi sob sob..

i wanna my car get tinted.. the best quality needed rm2200.. mom say too expensive.. don't want..

haizz.. but i told her i really want.. Stupid Malaysia weather so hot.. i really needed that...

mission now is go around garages see got better price...

haha.. next week 16 and 17 will have a trip to Bukit Tinggi to work..

my first time staying outside to work..

now.. vann vann got the power edi.. lols.. i just inform my mom that i'm gonna work for my lecturer at Bukit Tinggi.. not asking for a permission.. keke..

that job is something like motivate people, make friends, play with them, talk to them.. keke..

can play paint-ball.. lovely.. so long didn't play edi.. now can play for free.. wahahahaha... get pay to play.. keke...

2009-05-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

last time, i'm always looking forward to weekend to come..

but now, i'm always looking forward to weekdays..

i love to be with my friends..

nothing to do also can..

and only weekdays i can spend most of my time with you guys..

and and i'm graduating this sem.. by that time, i can't spend much time with you guys anymore..

then our friendship will fall apart, like what i had experienced..

and sat and sun is family day.. and must be kuai kuai girl stay at home..

if not mom and daddy will angry, unhappy..

today so so tiring, followed my parents to estate, because my mom have share.. so we went to have a look.. take an hour journey to that place.. spend few hours to see those oil plants and my mom's grandfather's house.. then went for lunch with other share members.. then drive back home for an another hour.. super duper tired..

went home straight away go to bed..

sleep till 6 something then eat dinner,

then start with my presentation again..

2 presentations tomorrow.. haizz...

super lazy..

2009-04-29T22:01:00.006+08:00

i just upload all my pictures from my phone.. there are many of it.. so i just post up funny pictures.. just cheer you guys up abit.. keke...

sisi doncey.. damn gay.. super duper gay..

everyday with his "pei wan" i saw fat meat lo..

omg.. who is that girl reading porn magazine in lecture hall.. what is the heck is going on now.. gosh.. reading porn magazine.. haizz..

omg.. is Yoew Yinn-Yinn who reading porn magazine and how mama feed baby magazine.. what the heck..

Helena: hey, Vannessa. don't you dare to take away my porn magazine, its special edition.. Go AWAY!!!

Evon: Helena, don't so selfish la, let me read.. what so special abit it..

lols.. keke...

mini hat wore by yin yin, damn cute, in Malacca

wash plates, wash plates, who wanna wash plates.. 10 cents for each plate..

wtf, who stupid gays kissing on the floor in public..

caught cha.. is Brandon and Choo.. damn gay..

lols..

pirated Bruce Lee by Choo...

sleeping in library..

Brandon's mini car.. haha...

two gays sleeping in library..

smiling plate.. keke..

MBBG's chu chu...

eh.. this one don't know what is that.. don't know what is that for.. but it gave me an idea.. do you guys know there are a culture where people put lots of different type of foods in a pot for each table, now, this thingy can help them save tables and spaces.. lols.. put all the foods in, everyone can eat it..

there are so many people sleeping in library.. haizz...

transformers- two chopstick transform into three chopstick..

lelong lelong, umbrella for sales, umbrella for sales.. who are interested pls come in front of library, first come first serve, while stock last..

smart driver drove up to the banks.

cute.. showing me her sweet..

cow boy.. yiiyyaya...

baby boy.. damn small boy.. lols..

wa.. damn scare ah.. lame.. lols..

oh gosh.. lols..

who is that, kena caught by lecturer that reading porn magazine in lecture hall, cover up her face, don't let people see, i so famous damn malu wan leh.. lols...

funny Helena, punish by Evon, cause Helena don't want to share her porn magazine with her.. lols..

i damn free lo..

case study due tomorrow..

and i haven't start yet..

still got time for this..

hahahhahahahahaha....

2009-04-28T21:44:00.006+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen... listen up!!

Vann is a debtor now..

i'm on liability..

Because of my handsome hubby.. G Grade Toyota Vios... my is in black colour, full spec.. gonna have it on my birthday.. May 22... keke..

very handsome ah.. at first i don't really like the design, still prefer the old one.. but actually its quite handsome.. keke.. yummy.. lols..

inside will be in this colour.. haizz.. i wanna have black or grey.. but they don't have in G grade's car.. haizz..

2009-04-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

We paused and looked about us, and, slowly, as the sun made it's way,

We saw something, something that was all around and above us.

We didn't see the trees,

We saw the gold,

The same gold that some people spend their whole lives looking for,

And, just as quickly as it come,

The sun went down behind the mountain,

And our gold disappeared..

2009-04-21T19:23:00.004+08:00

i know.. i know.. its super duper late.. its even after mid-term break..

but this was what i promised.. so here you go..

went Oldtown the day before she went to aus

at airport with cian..

with jess..

with all girls.. i didn't know Helena is that short.. lols..

2009-04-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

had a bbq party on friday with my MBBG and monash friend and ashley.. had a great night that day.. thanks for coming and the food being prepared, although i didn't eat much, i didn't get to try anna's potato salad, yin's kelupak and paul's sotong.. but i don't like sotong though.. haha.. but the prawn super man.. damn super big.. haizz.. forgot to take pic of it..

late night, not drunk, tying to pose like i'm drunk..

lying on yin.. keke..

drinking with my dad but not mom, mom need to take medicine so can't drink with us.. haha..

see.. my father like eunice chu.. face red red.. me nothing at all.. lols..

group pic.. taken by my dad.. how come ash and choo so super CLOSE?????????

seriously damn close, choo sit on ash???

doncey with his pei wan again.. yin poser.. haha..

lovely girl girl...

damn gay... choo's bf(alex)

cute paul with his devil horn

devil yin trying to eat black prawn

just started with beer, pretending we are drunk.. lols..

cute adorable doggy.. lols..

alien.. keke

girl girl poser

i love ash in this pic..

2009-04-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

If I Fell - Evan Rachel Wood

If I fell in love with you,

Would you promise to be true

And help me understand

Cause I've been in love before

And I found that love was more

than just holding hands

If i give my heart to you

I must be sure

from the very start

that you would love me more than her

If I trust in you oh please

Don't run and hide

if I love you too oh please

don't hurt my pride like her

'cause I couldn't stand the pain

and I would be sad if our new love was in vain

so I hope you see

that I would love to love you

If I fell in love with you

2009-04-16T21:50:00.004+08:00

2009-04-16T20:45:00.003+08:00

Melaka's trip was fantastic,

but before the trip i was caught 1hours in the jam to go uni.. in between need to fetch dong also.. but haha.. we are not the latest, doncey was the latest.. oh, i thought yin said doncey belanjar for breakfast??? why we still paid our own bill??

ok.. first of all, we went to Seremban for Breakfast.. i ate chicken porridge, delicious and competitive price.. super nice and super full, choo took some from me but still super full..

after that bought 6 siew paus, but only me and yin buying, course they said Klang and SS2 also got.. -_-'

after that our journey to Melaka.. first stop at Afamosa.. we took lots of picture there.. see i can upload some pictures... hope it wouldn't take ages to upload..

then haha.. my yummy lunch of chicken rice balls.. super delicious but chicken not as good as ipoh chicken.. after all, my day has came.. haha.. shopping.. lols.. bought 3 shirts, 1 pair of slipper, one devil hair bang toy.. wearing it for tomorrow bbq.. lols.. two necklaces for my bro.. after all went to the red building took some pictures..

we are so tired, resting there for awhile..

then we head to the beach for sun-set and took lots lots of pictures.. non-stop posing.. lols..

all of those pictures i think must see in facebook.. i only can upload some of it..

after that, we go round and round in Melaka to find the famous restaurant for our dinner, unlucky its close, then we find another famous restaurant called Capitol Satay, its a steamboat but used Satay sauce.. its special and taste not bad, but i think i won't go back again.. course some sort it looks quite dirty and messy when we are eating..

then we head back to Subang, super tired, but don't really dare to sleep in the car.. course kuan chin driving seriously damn fast 160/km, but lucky is BMW, don't really can feel the speed.. but some how it is fast... crazy..

took a nap just now.. now really felt dizzy and blur.. haizz..

but i went to carrefour bought all the stuff edi..

tomorrow we gonna EAT AGAIN..

shit.. damn scary.. non-stop eating man.. omg.. i'm gaining weight again.. oowwrrrggg.. die-ing.. shit.. haizz.. after tomorrow, must stop eating too full and heavy food.. lols..

yeah.. tomorrow got..

mom-chicken wing

vann-garlic bread

anna-potato salad

clara-tiramisu cake

choo-soup, watermelon and beer

dong-beer

doncey-hotdog, wine

alex-hotdog

kuan chin-soft drink and kuih

yin-ketupat

paul-sweet potato

ian- wine or beer

ashley-"don't know"...lols

yummy yummy day tomorrow..

haha, before that.. badminton session first.. burn some fat before masuk food again.. keke.. not point right.. i know.. at least not that guilty of eating and at least not gaining that much weight i think... wahahaha...

2009-04-12T21:04:00.002+08:00

mid-term break started.. keke..

what is my plan??

finish up my SM presentation due on 20th april..

go Melaka for one day trip..

organize a BBQ..

wanna go Genting for one day trip..

wanna watch confession of shopaholic..

wanna shopping shopping...

wanna sleep sleep sleep.. BUT automatic alarm wake me up.. haizz..

seriously i don't understand why people always says they lie because they do not want them to be upset or angry..

so why started with the lie??

seriously, for me no matter how you explain.. it will just be an excuses for me..

i hate people not being truthful..

you can don't tell me the truth..

but don't lie in front of me when i ask you..

anyway, as she said.. you are not my anyone..

so.. why bother.. just let him be..

till today, i only know is both of them lying to me..

i hate people who smoked,

i hate the smell,

ain't those people very stupid..

waste money..

the most important thing is unhealthy,

don't they know they bringing themselves nearer to death,

yeah.. why they so smart.. parents raise them up, they hurting their health, do they ask their parents that they can smoke?? parents pay so much raise them up, educate them, don't they know smoke cause cancer. don't they will be scare??

i care because i treat them as friends, but they treat me an asshole lying in front of me..

whatsoever, forget about it..

2009-04-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

...

lazy!!

2009-03-28T00:35:00.002+08:00

been through of so many things..

now thinking back..

i'm doing good..

i'm getting a better life..

i'm happy to have those friends..

and those people who whatsoever..

shouldn't even bother about their existence..

great...

2009-03-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

**Happy Birthday**

**Lulu**

SONG---

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to lulu,

happy birthday to you.

^.^

2009-03-03T23:30:00.004+08:00

class started..

so far so good..

my summer result coming out tomorrow.. damn scare

today i saw my lecturer in cafeteria, so quick went up to ask do i fail IICA..

IICA was the subject that i worried the most.. cause no enough time to finish..

i know how to do, i know all the answer, but time limited..

felt sad, depressed, angry, effort wasted..

this blog support blog it yesterday, but bro off streamyx..

ok.. so.. my result was consider good..

but i didn't get D..

i told my mom my result, she sound abit disappointed as well as me..

always, study so hard but just can't get D or HD

why la, 2mark to get D..

why la don't give me..

haizz..

gambate for the next three subjects..

must must get HD..

celebrated my result just now with bran after my work..

he surprise me by visiting me..

but haha.. i screwed up his plan.. lol..

how?? i sms him for yam cha.. while he was downstair waiting for me.. haha..

celebrated with Rami burger which is at SS15 wan and clasberg at kk basketball court..

still quite full, so can't sleep..

2009-03-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

class starts tomorrow..

i'm so so glad about that..

lols.. 2 weeks holidays was good..

its only 2 weeks but i felt my holidays is more than 2 weeks..

almost everyday outing was tiring but was lovely days..

today woke up at 12 something cause of Choo wake me up for last day outing before class..

so i went lunch with my family edi then went The Curve with Choo, Anna and Brandon..

was satisfied of my shopping.. lols..

i shop till Brandon wanna buy me a T-Shirt which stated I LOVE SHOPPING.. lol..

i shop till Brandon and Choo can not tahan, yam cha la, yam cha la, keep appear none stop..

but me and Anna don't care, still continue with it.. keke..

when we were on the way to The Curve, we was thinking of going Genting to see Garry the birthday boy, but still end up in The Curve cause too late..

And Chi Hoong called me for Genting also, but too bad.. got family dinner can't go with him somemore i promised Choo.. he always also like that wan lo, always asked at wrong timing.. lol.. also don't know when only can go with him..

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARRY*

Sushi waiting for you..

class started, march will be busy month, cause i will be working for nike (got a nike shoe, damn nice, that shoe cost rm299 man, also got two t-shirt and one pair of sock, damn love to work for nike, keke), and i wanna be librarian, join a few clubs, just wanna do whatever i can in last sem..

summer result coming out soon, damn worry, especially for IICA.. haiz..

oo, thought of upload pictures, but it really really gonna take me long, so i just give up, maybe i will upload in uni, faster.. keke.. soon, soon will have pic.. pic say the thousand word cause it impossible for me to blog every single thing happened..

ok.. class start at 9, have to follow dad out at 7.30..

let me play viwawa for awhile..

take care my dear..

although i don't know what is going on..

just give me a ring if you need me..

2009-02-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

Glad to be drunk..

Cop said " i've got to take you in, pal. You're obviously drunk".

Drunker "Officer, are you absolutely sure i'm drunk?"

Cop "Yeah, buddy, i'm sure, let's go".

Drunker breathing a sigh of relief said "thank goodness, i thought i was crippled".

2009-02-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

when i get too close to a person..

his smell..

i can remember the smell,

and because of the smell, i know he beside me or he appear around me..

when you like that person, you will love their smell too..

i'm one of it.. i love to smell him..

now, still the same, i still will love to smell a person, but that person changed..

last week, i suddenly changed my Shampoo brand because i finished my Shampoo..

thats the smell, the smell belong to him.. because of that i started to use that Shampoo and wash it often.. haha.. just i like that smell, and it make me miss him often.. lols..

yesterday i saw him,

the first person i love to smell, i can't smell that smell which belong to him, is stranger to me

i never say hi.. i never talk to him.. treated him transparent..

i felt bad, but i really do not know how to say hi infront of so many people..

maybe if one day, only me and him.. i might say hi..

Bran ask why i can be so calm toward that person who make up story, even say hi??

god give him mouth, so i can't control whatever he wanna say, and he just a friend..

not as important as his thought.. being with that person but Trust, being Quiet??

although we are not together but concern won't stop...

today is his birthday..

it took me almost a month+ to think whether should i send wish msg..

send or don't send,

happy or angry,

think think think..

but still i sent..

no matter what he wanna think or wanna do,

i just wanna wish him a *HAPPY BIRTHDAY*

i remember that he said "pride can treat as rice to eat??" i was very angry how can he said that, till now i still disagree with that sentence..

you guys should know Vann's pride is very high..

it isn't easy for me to do this..

but i did, i asked many question why i have to do that..

i don't know why.. i can't answer why..

so just let it be like that lo..

class started next week,

only got three days class, monday, tuesday and thursday..

hmm.. Vann gonna be lazy piggy again..

3days classes i know, i will be lazy to go class..

i won't have study mood.. haizz..

2009-02-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

wanna update second part..

but don't know whether is my connection problem or what..

one pic also can not upload..

damn shit wan lo..

anyway.. pictures later la.. when connection is good..

ok.. after i sent off Jess and Cian..

me and bran went to Uni meet up Yinn-Yinn and Choo for dinner..

lols.. my dinner was at 11p.m. great right..

can't sleep at night.. because i'm too full.. have to wake up early in the morning somemore..

me, Choo, Anna, Bran and Robert went to Putrajaya for bicycle.. haha.. SO DAMN FREE..

SO DAMN TIRED.. SO DAMN SLEEPY..

ok.. back to story.. i went to Uni i found something interesting..

HERE YOU GO..

Women=Time x Money

since,

Time=Money

thus,

Money x Money=Women

so,

Money2=Women.......1

and since money is the root of evil

Money=square root of evil

thus,

Money2=evil...............2

hence,

Women=Evil...............3

.....................................................................................................................................

Women=Time x Money

Money= square root of problems

Money2=problems

Time=Money

Problems=Time x Money

.'.Women=Problems

Women=No Money

No Women=Money

Women(1+No)=(1+No)Money

So.. Women=Money

_____________________________________________________

Man=Problem

No Man=No Problem

Man+No Man=Problem+No Problem

Man(1+No)=Problem(1+no)

so... Man = Problem

Men=Time x Money

Money2=Probelms

Time=Money

Problem=Time x Money

.'. Men=More Problems---i don't get this.. but as a girl i must agree lols...

.................................................................................................................................

Study=No Fail

No Study=Fail

Study+No Study=No Fail+Fail

Study(1+No)=(1+No)Fail

Study=Fail

...............................................................................................................................

A Women has the last word in any argument. Fact?

anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

haha.. so so so true.. keke... but man don't argue back.. women will say no Character.. lols..

so Women=Problem.. hahaha...

A woman marries a man expecting he would change, but he doesn't..

A man marries a women expecting she won't change, and she DOES..

keke.. yes.. its true(of cause will change).. lols..

A man will pay RM20 for a RM10 item he need---stupid right.. lols..

A women will pay RM10 for a RM20 item she doesn't need---smart shopper.. lols..

................................................................................................................................

Done

2009-02-22T18:13:00.008+08:00

update update..

just post up the main picture..

cause upload pic damn long..

i spent few hours for uploading those pictures.. haizz...

my cousin's birthday.. during chinese new year.. not fair.. she got extra angpau.. so so so not fair.. lols

chinese new year party on friday night.. front sing k.. behind is drinking session.. where am i?? i'm at drinking session.. lols...

my lovely uncle chin.. my father best friend.. very sayang us wan.. keke..

Chinese new year from Bran.. lovely cake but too sweet.. keke..

my cousin's birthday also.. her youngest sister.. so so so unfair.. she got extra angpau also.. sobsob.. i don't have..

he was pretending that he is studying in the library.. he was holding my notes..

went pyramid for a movie and shopping just after my exam.. how was his outlook.. i choose that formal shirt and jacket.. i like when he dress up smart.. keke..

at JayaOne.. find Ash for lunch.. such a big office she have.. saw that table.. its her table.. big hall just one table.. lols.. her boss room also don't have such big space as her.. so keng.. haha..

lunch with Ash and Bran with J.co.. Ash talking with Aaron who joining lunch with us.. surprisingly i met Sun.. not at the car park(her sis saw me) but on the way driving back to subang..

went 1u shopping, sing k.. then eat dinner at the pancake's house.. food?? not bad.. very very full

THE PIC SHOW NEXT DAY.. ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT.. UPLOAD TAKES LONG

see this photo.. he did that before this photo.. and haha.. both playful boy boy, bran didn't hold choo tightly, choo fell into the pool.. lols.. damn funny..

beer beer beer.. i'm loving it.. keke..

bought beer at cold storage.. my idea is drink it while shopping.. but anna and choo say it against the law.. but i did that with bran in 1u also.. no people catch also.. nvm.. i just drink it in the car.. i so so so fall in love with beer.. keke...

At the Curve.. went for Nike training then have dinner at Vivo.. food?? ok ok only..

searching for beer to drink but end up at ss2 dessert restaurant.. not bad (rm5).. taste better than i bought rm10 fruits dessert (near 1901) at pyramid.. totally not worth it.. waste my damn money..

2009-02-16T20:01:00.003+08:00

i'm stuck in the middle..

i do not want this to happen again..

i don't understand.. whenever there is something happen between me or him or any of him..

they sure will go find you.. and tell you all stuff of us..

i do not want that incident happens again..

it made me stopped on no where.. it made me feel like falling back.. and i think i should..

i don't think i deserve.. it just make me feel scare..

yes.. i'm scare..

i just wanna go somewhere right-away where nobody knows me..

i felt so sorry that you have to hear something about me from other people..

you have to hear something about your best friend from a new met friend..

this make me feel i'm a terrible person..

i'm sorry my dear..

and you my dear..

i'm sorry that i didn't find you when i know you are on holidays..

some sort of felt weird feeling between you and me..

i felt that you trying to push me far away from you.. out of your life..

that feeling kept in my heart quite some time..

thats also make me not to contact you..

i will find you this few days..

and talk to you about this.. maybe just i'm too stupid of thinking those nonsense stuff..

anyway.. you and you.. i kept this feeling in my heart quite some time.. now telling all out make me feel better.. best friend have no secret.. best friend no heart feeling..

additional: i'm done for my summer exam.. having two weeks holidays..

2009-01-25T13:46:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year..

Exam coming..

So..

MIA for one month..

bb..

2009-01-20T22:20:00.005+08:00

I believe that you gave up something or loss something..

You will receive other thing..

I believe god has arranged a better one for you..

This better one will lead you to another situation..

By that you will learn, experience, feel from that..

So don't be afraid of giving up or losing it..

It just brings you to another stage..

BUT it's depend on whether you have the courage and willingness of giving up or losing it..

Sometimes it is not right of holding it too tight..

Just be naturally..

Don't expect so much in your life..

You will be happier..

Tenji Japanese Buffet was breathtaking..

It's a seductive place to go..

The food was delicious..

The service was very good..

As the e-mail i sent to you guys.. it looks exactly the same..

The oyster was huge.. it's even overflow outer of the shell.. i never ever seen that huge oyster..

They provides Dim Sum la, Ginseng sup la, Sushi la, Steam Fish la, Sushi la, Tempura la, Janpanese mee sup la, Sashimi la, Fried Chicken la, Chicken Boxing la (funny name), Tempayaki la(with all kinds of food which they can cook with), Salad la, Spaghetti la, Pizza la, Sup la, Lamb la, Beef la, Tiger Prawn, Crab, Lobster, Coconut la, Fruit la, Fruit Juice la, Chocolate fondue la, Breads la, Biscuit la, Cookies la, Cakes la, Ice-Cream la, PanCake la, Flower tea la, Soft drink la, Coffee and Tea la, PopCorn la.. erm.. these are the food offered and almost tried everything..

keke.. fatty fatty edi..

Don't know whether can i succeed Choung Choung's promise.. haizz.. i will gambate..

keke.. lazy to upload photos.. you will see it soon in facebook.. NO facebook??TOO BAD..lols..

2009-01-17T22:23:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch emo movie..

You got some??

I'm very down now..

Nothing better to do..

Something stuck inside..

I need to get it all out..

I just watched a movie called "Make It Happen"

Its a Good Music and Dancing movie..

Its the new dance sensation from writers of Step Up and Save The Last Dance

Hear The Music... Feel The Beat..

I know its very random here..

What to do.. its a bored day..

Final exam is coming soon..

Can not fool around.. i must hibernate myself..

I got the emotion of study study study.. I NEED TO STUDY..

BUT... NO ACTION AT ALL..

I know i CAN'T procrastinate..

I miss him.. but i can't tell about that..

Can i just be like the "YES MAN" movie..

Just say YES to everything..

I hope i can..

2009-01-16T08:45:00.002+08:00

what am i doing??
facebook-ing.. chit-chat- ing.. day dreaming..
presentation???
skew-up la..
die lo..
hahahahhaa...
read only ma.. won't die la..
kekekekkee...

very sleepy..

2009-01-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

my new watch.. keke..

nice???

i love it..

2009-01-12T17:37:00.003+08:00

last saturday.. hmm..

it was my first time i drank that much..

wine>>beer>>wine>>German whisky>>wine>>France whisky>>beer>>wine

omg.. thats alot..

felt damn dizzy that day.. haha.. but i know what am i doing and my mind is still very clear about everything.. lols.. just when you consume so much.. you will felt your movement abit heavy and hardly to move around.. lols.. but for outsider its normal..

that day was Queenie's birthday.. was invited all the neighbor included us.. just ate abit then started to drink.. lols.. then keep on toss by uncles and auntie.. haha.. also have to toss with birthday girl.. lols..

birthday girl bought a 70% booze.. its smell good but don't have the chance of trying it..

auntie don't allow.. haizz... smore tell me alot alot of her theory.. man.. haizz.. zzzzzz..

hahaha... when i reach home that time.. really felt like vomiting.. lols.. but didn't.. too sleepy.. went to bed straight.. movement damn heavy.. lols..

i wanna go republic..

i'm a alcoholic now.. damn

the next day woke up very early.. accompany my dad to parkson shopping..

then went Klang for lunch.. thong thong's bro's wife just gave birth.. so went Klang to pray great grandma to tell her about this.. do some catch up there.. after that went to putra high.. thong's big brother's shop.. he very funny wan lo.. never pray person but sell prayer stuff.. lols.. haizz..

after that went grandma's house to park thong's car then sat sis's car to 1utama.. that was my first time i sat thong's car.. lols.. dangerous.. haha.. smore saw an accident.. haha.. she was damn tension.. me lagi scare.. haha... (i'm being so auntie.. lols)..

ok.. i watched Sammi cheng latest movie.. that was damn nice.. must watch must watch..

haha.. after you watch..you will realize my hair somehow like her hair.. lols.. and i also have that type of glasses which i'm wearing.. just different colour.. lols.. i wanna watch again...

then shopping and shopping.. lols.. keep on buy and buy.. haizz.. bankrupt edi..

stupid payment haven't come yet.. haizz..

i wanna go cat and whisker..

i'm a shopaholic now.. damn..

hey.. you guys should received one email from me.. wanna go? but that offer fully booked.. go for another offer.. after 16.. in the afternoon for rm49.90 unlimited time..

this week really a busy week man..

tomorrow mini assignment due..

wednesday e-biz assignment due..

thursday mini assignment and iica assignment due..

friday e-biz presentation..

damn.. must present in lecture hall, in front of everyone.. omg.. we are the first group smore.. damn..

the worst thing is exam on feb 10 and 11.. damn..

that is Chinese new year.. damn..

stupid Monash.. whf..

haizz..

wow.. that was a long post..

i was brain freeze by assignment..

who can help me???

god.. quick..

drop money to me or a smarty and handsome white horse prince for me..

i'm nonsense-ing.. bb

2009-01-10T13:49:00.001+08:00

felt like drinking booze now..

will get it tonight..

after submit all my assignments..

who wanna go get a drink with me??

2009-01-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

why the font became like that??

whatever la..

damn tiring of blogging..

2009-01-09T21:40:00.011+08:00

As i promised..

The Cow hat that i bought at Cameron Highland..

Here is the pics of how it look like..

CowGirl.. Yeng leh.. lols..

Eunice Chu... your little FangFang wear dress ooo.. haha.. and i think i'm really look great.. haha.. tak malu pula.. keke... i love all the pics below..

thanks to yee's bro's wedding gave me a chance to dress up.. also a second complete group pic..

pics time..tictoktictok..

i love this pic.. especially me myself.. haha... there are alots more.. but lazy to upload pics.. upload pics is really a torture works..

The lovely couple--`

all dress up formally, except him.. haiz... what can i say..

yee's father and mother.. i always sweet talk with them.. haha.. "yee, your mother sayang me more than you lo" >> i always said that.. but the last time was when? i can't recall.. lols.. this pic is without Xia.. below that pic can't see lulu clearly.. so post up two lo...

5 lovely darling.. 22 years old this year (who's birthday first.. haha).. sobsob.. haha.. isn't we look awesome, fabulous.. lols..

this the first complete pic i have.. was taken at my house.. because of yea Chinese new year..

second pic i have.. taken in yee's house.. when going to have the third pic??? at who's house?

what am i doing la..

haizz...

vann vann need motivation..

4 assignments and 1 presentation due next week..

but what am i doing.. blogging.. smore blog for an hour.. damn.. thats why i said upload picture really torture man..

smore i'm so addicted in facebook.. Eunice chu la.. lols..

especially addicted in facebook's poker game.. Choo la invited me for what.. lols..

betting for no reason.. betting with no real money..

damn wasting my damn time..

but what to do...

vann vann really really don't have the heart of doing the damn assignments...

vann vann brain die edi.. can't think anything.. tomorrow only do la.. tomorrow and tomorrow..

2009-01-09T17:38:00.002+08:00

omg.. i found that person's blog..

damn freaking yeng lo..

omg.. i'm fall in that person again..

aaarrrwww...

2009-01-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

was being so close to each other..

but now has become stranger..

life have to be like that??

i don't know..

involved in four relationships..

two has become stranger..

so 50/100..

still i don't know..

someone said:

when involving a new relationship, then must forget the previous relationship..

is that true??

for me--its not true

someone said:

you are on vacation now.. you started your journey from Subang to US.. now you reached US.. you do not need to forget you start your journey from Subang..

same theory apply..

is that true??

for me--its true

someone ask:

why are you so scare??

i'm scare of doing it wrong.. maybe i give up something which is important to me.. but i didn't realize about it..

maybe it will be like that...

how can i be so irresponsible?? maybe it will be like that.. but i can't be like that..

why can't??

huh???

you have the right to do wrong, the right to fail, the right to risk. Also got the right to restart again.. If you want to do that..

is that true??

for me--its true

someone said:

when you did something wrong, you failed.. you should give another chance to restart again.. bring out your brave again..

is that true??

for me-its true

but somehow.. sometime you just can't manage to do it..

2009-01-05T00:50:00.003+08:00

normally i can drink alot..

but today and last friday..

i get dizzy fast..

haiz...

yee's bro wedding finally end..

its a very successful wedding..

food not bad.. arrangement not bad.. the most important thing was yee is there..

so everything was good.. perfect..

especially she sat with us whereas she should sat with her family..

really appreciated that.. love her so much..

bro with his wife really very sweet and handsome and pretty.. hahaha...

everything almost perfect..

just one thing bothering me..

thats make me really upset..

but nothing i can do about it..

lets time flies..

2009-01-03T11:41:00.003+08:00

he is the one said do not want to friend me..

he is the one said do not want to talk to me..

he is the one who delete the friendster contact..

he is the one who block or delete messenger..

you expect me to say hi!!!

is not like i didn't try to say hi..

i did say hi.. end up.. yea right.. i didn't say hi in-front of him is my wrong..

i say hi to everyone and so loud.. end up.. what was his reaction..

yea right.. i caused him to react that way.. so.. its my wrong again..

yea.. one thing i know.. i ask for break up.. is forever my wrong..

i did try to do something..

exam.. i send wishes..

christmas.. i send wishes..

so if he expect hi from me.. why not he reply a wishes..

so.. you expect me to say hi yesterday..

its impossible.. 我没那么大方...

don't come and tell me all your theory..

ask me why i have to be like that..

can't you do this do that..

pls.. as you all say..

don't put your theory on me..

if you experience what i experience, you only come and tell me all your theory..

no matter what you experience, no matter what theory you tell me..

you still not me..

tell me all your theories.. can.. no problem.. i will listen..

but don't expect any reaction from me to him..

no offend at all.. just wanna say what i think.. and let you guys know what i think..

thats it..

now my aim is same as him.. but not the process.. lols..

i can't afford to play.. keke..

yesterday was a great day..

early in the morning go Uni for my presentation..

i do not have any nervous or tension feeling..

never prepare anything.. straight to uni.. refer abit.. then present..

great.. nothing bad happened.. smooth all the way.. hahaha..

after that went lec but skip after one hour..

damn boring and sleepy.. listen to mp3 also wanna sleep..

haha.. so went to summit with bran..

corrected the pants length..

serviced the camera..

then went for a movie called "Four Christmases"

its a very sweet and nice and funny movie..

after that went to old kfc for badminton..

i saw my two ex-coach.. i went up to say hi when they finish their training..

i'm glad they still remember me.. haha..

Christine: Fang ah.. ooo.. Fang ah.. Han Jian.. Siaw Fang ah.. tomboy wan ah..

Han Jian: ooo.. Siaw Fang ah.. mei liau wor.. hahaha..

bleh bleh bleh bleh.. kekeke...

now i feel the pain of after badminton.. haizz...especially my right arm..

dinner was great.. been so long all of us together..

chit chat was great.. tell what you felt.. tell what are you thinking now..

its great.. really great..

tomorrow is the big day for yee's brother.. when is yours???haha...

ok.. stop right here.. getting long and long..

see you guys tomorrow..

one thing wanna tell you guys.. i felt very warm.. wanna share with you guys..

first time i felt that i'm so important to a guy..

the first thing i do when i woke up is call him.. he told me that..

no matter how late you also have to tell me you are back..

i will wait.. i'm a night ghost.. so don't worry of sms or call me..

i don't know why.. last time also experienced.. but the feeling is totally different..

everytime i wanna let go.. but he will do something make me not to let go..

i'm so sorry keep him awake..

THE END..

its time to say bye bye.. see you next day..

lols..

2009-01-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

Happy New year my all lovely beloved...

Wishing you good health and happiness..

let 2009 COW year be a good year filled with all good things..

and you guys can become Cash Cow..

2008-12-30T21:49:00.004+08:00

is there something bad gonna happen???

i accidentally knock down the blue photo-frame you guys gave me since 2006..

its my birthday present from you girls..

i'm so sorry my dear..

i changed it to another photo-frame..

taken down another photo which i should take it out for long..

although the photo-frame cracked..

but you guys still looks handsome and pretty..

lols..

sincerely i'm very sorry..

stupid me.. why am i so clumsy!!!

haizz...

2008-12-29T21:19:00.001+08:00

i'm back..

getting fatter again..

haizz...

dress ah.. dress ah..

how???

2008-12-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

haha...

can dream read the future..

its really "i'm back"

lols..

or he read my blog??? -_-

2008-12-16T09:05:00.001+08:00

hmm "i'm back"
its just a dream..
what was i doing??
i can't remember..

2008-12-15T23:33:00.001+08:00

i really don't understand..

why have to be like that???

care or don't care??

its not up to my choices..

2008-12-13T12:35:00.004+08:00

there are something bothering me quite some time..

but i promised my friend not to say anything or do anything..

but i'm really sorry my dear.. i really can't take it anymore..

i told someone about it.. but promised won't say anything or do anything..

so don't worry k.. i don't wanna hurt you also.. what they do i don't care.. i just care that person who are important to me.. because you girls reaction and action are very important to me.. and the truth is what you girls do are more hurtful to me more than anyone.. i don't care how others hurt me but not you girls.. you girls are very important to me.. i don't want have any heart sick with you girls.. i'm really sorry that i did hurt you girls.. and didn't change at all.. BUT i will.. i really will.. not promise.. i can't promise anything.. its just matter of time.. i will grow up and learn.. after telling you girls about this.. i'm totally clear.. no heart sick edi.. hope you girls too..

dear.. i'm really very like him.. he is very different from him.. so can't compare at all.. both also have their good side..

but sometime i will think that i'm really not suitable for being in a relationship..

i keep hurting him.. my pride very high.. i very stubborn.. i'm not sweet at all.. i never tolerant at all.. alot alot more..

right now i really can't involve in a relationship..

i know you guys wanna me to be with him..

but really can't.. and i don't want to tell him that i can't accept a new one right now..

i don't want to lose him.. i'm scare..

keke...

haha.. am i thinking too much.. thinking too far..

haha.. but i told eunice chu.. there are nothing to be shy.. just express yourself.. lols..

and i'm doing it also.. so chu chu.. we shy together.. lols..

gambate for your assign and exam..

miss you so much..

yea.. Xia is a liar.. Lulu is a big liar.. LIAR LIAR LIAR.. lols.. keke..

i'm happy for the surprise.. thanks Xia for hiding us for so long and can't tell anything about it..

and Lulu.. i'm glad you are back.. i'm really very happy.. miss you so much.. wanna go out with you.. call me k.. anytime.. anywhere..

no BBQ for tonight.. changed it to tomorrow.. wanna go out.. but he is on his way to Langkawi.. Xia wanna go cut hair.. call you now.. keke..

2008-12-09T09:49:00.002+08:00

this is the man you intro to me Eunice CHU..

middle that wan is you CHU CHU monkey..

keke...

2008-12-06T10:29:00.003+08:00

The MOST Romantic place i ever been to..

The MOST Romantic things ever happened on me..

The MOST Romantic person i ever know..

xia.. you totally can't imagine where he brings me.. how we eat our dinner..

i'm like that person who celebrating birthday.. we are like King and Queen in that restaurant..

the way we dine, makes a lots of people looking at us.. even take photo of us..

and ask.. did he ask them to arrange the way we eat dinner..

first time felt i'm like a celebrity.. weird but don't care.. i'm happy with it.. i'm really enjoy..

now thinking back its still very sweet and funny..

at that moment.. i really did change my mind.. haha..

really hope he can hold my hand walk me down to the restaurant.. keke..

but boy boy him(innocent look won't do that).. haha..

you guys should know who am i talking about..

Eunice Chu.. you know who is that guy.. you intro him to me pass three years..

thanks to you..

my parents know about him.. they received some signals from me..

so i guess they are ready..

but still i didn't give him the answer he want..

i was damn terrible when we are going back..

i keep on talk and talk.. just hope he won't ask..

but still he did..

really really very thankful..

thanks for understand my situation..

xia.. still remember the sms he sent..

he said i can wear slippers..

you know why?

because we dine in the mini waterfall pool..

and he recommend that.. the restaurant should put fish in the water..

so we can enjoy foot spa.. haha..

2008-11-27T17:47:00.003+08:00

yeah..

i had pass all my subjects..

and its my first time get D..

somemore is trade law..

i started wonder again.. i should just take Law courses..

i didn't fail my law subjects before.. even get quite high mark..

this was the second times mama and papa and grandma say congratulation..

haha.. damn happy.. when my mom reached home.. she straight came to my room..

ask me lots lots of stuff.. haha..

good.. i get what i wanna get.. keke...

another good news was.. yesterday my head Shah Alam supervisor said the sales are very good..

client wanna continue the project.. keke..

got to work again..

but is just sat and sun, 12 to 9, RM100.. haha..

next week 5th of dec.. i got a job at monash.. 1hour for RM5.. will get RM30 for that day.. haha.

and i just got a call from Monash.. she want me to work for medical school..

haha.. suddenly got so many jobs..

and a good opportunity to learn so many things..

and get money money money..

haha..

2008-11-27T16:57:00.004+08:00

been working as promoter for 7days..

yesterday was the last day..

today is a relax day..

but tiring of facing computer..

this promoter job can be consider the most relaxing job and get high paid..

haha.. the highest paid.. one day for RM120..

worked for 7days.. starting from 10 to 9..

at Shah Alam Tesco..

story was...

i worked with Vincent(my supervisor).. don't look like supervisor also.. teach me bad stuffs..

he also live in KK.. a Monash student also.. so coincidence.. haha...

so every morning he gave me a ride..

we leave at 9.45 most of the times..

reach after 10.. haha..

break at 12 to 1.. then work.. then break at 4-5..

first two days was following the rule..

after that... haha..

break more than 1hours..

got chair to sit somemore..

most happier day was saturday and sunday...

there are so many promoter there.. so me and the rest of promoter get along very well..

went around and around to eat and eat and drink and drink(Vincent teach me wan).. haha..

look like a shopper playing around more than like a promoter there.. haha...

but still we also got do our duty..

everyday also reach target.. somemore is more than enough..

reach two days of target in one day.. keng leh?? haha..

later result will be release..

damn scare.. felt butterflying in my stomach..

haizz.. i keep on say to myself.. i had try my best..

nomatter how.. still must gambate.. keke..

shit.. my friend said result is out.. gosh..

go check first..

bb..

2008-11-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

sorry for not being updated..

just finish my final exam..

its lucky that i'm still alive..

but what i has felt now is what is the point of being alive..

i have nothing to do..

but this two days went to 1u for breast cancer campaign charity..

last friday celebrated Wei Choung's 21st birthday..

i hope he did enjoy the lunch and celebration in Tgifriday..

and i'm so sorry can't celebrate with him on that day..

his special day "3-11-2008"

Happy Birthday again my darling Joe

"Joe" sound weird.. still prefer Wei Choung.. keke..

and today is Mr. COOL's birthday..

Happy Birthday my lovely Ku Gou Loon..

will celebrate with you when you came back..

so wait for you on mid of December..

this is the third day of after exam..

so.. basically.. still no enough rest...

i need more beauty sleep..

i have been at uni's library for one month from 8.30a.m till 10p.m..

stay at uni more than at home..

and within one month i went home only 4 times for dinner..

so sad? but i misssss library now..

i misss studying with bonding group..

i misss yam cha-ing with them..

now what i can do is waiting for summer course or maybe i can go for internship if the big four accounting firms accept me..

i will stop here now..

will being Anti-Blog for a moment..

sorry..

2008-10-04T14:57:00.003+08:00

been playing around for this whole week of holidays..

all are out of my schedule.. (my schedule was start study on monday)

5 days in Singapore..

supposedly going Genting on thursday for two days with my uncle's family..

but badly, my house Unser engine out of battery..

so rested a day in house..

friday went to uni do assignment..

thanks for Tall bran's HL milk.. and i heard some secret.. haha.. and xia your guessing is true..

today he got a basketball competition.. hope he can win..

i'm still thinking of going anot.. keke..

after that went to pyramid celebrate Anna's birthday..

keke.. watched eagle eye.. it was damn awesome movie..

after that, went to Sakae Sushi for dinner..

thanks to the supervisor..

i had a great dinner..

after that went to play bowling..

i was good.. haha... but still i lost 4 points to nic..

it was damn funny of playing with them.. cause it created another memory for me..

rather than thinking of him.. now will think of them.. haha..

president running action.. haha..

everyone cuteness..

after that went for archery.. 300 arrows man..

but i don't think we did played 300 arrows..

haha... again instead of thinking of him, i will think of nic..

i really have a great game with him..

and also bran.. cause he was also beside me.. me and nic was keep shooting his board.. haha...

after that, lepak in pyramid for photo shooting, riddles, and we had some embarrassing moment where president carry brandon running around.. there are people looking at them.. haha.. but its was funny.. and i'm really enjoyed..

after that we went to old town for a drink..

childish moment started again... i think it was Anna but surprisingly was not Bran.. we played hide and seek.. first victim is Bran.. hided his handphone.. then nic's car key.. after that stupid Bran wanna hide my handphone.. but failed.. haizz...

so now think back it was like bonding group outing rather than celebrating Anna's birthday..

i'm so sorry girl..

and nic always are the lucky guy of sending me back again..

thanks...

and sorry for breaking his curfew.. haha..

my streamyx modem spoiled.. so can not online often..

anything just msg or call me..

take care yea my dears..

2008-09-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

This is the way you left me.

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No happy ending.

This is the way that we love,

Like its forever.

Then live the rest of our life,

But not together.

Wake up in the morning,

Stumble on my life.

Can't get no love without sacrifice.

If anything should happen,

I guess I wish you well.

Mm A little bit of heaven,

But a little bit of hell.

This is the hardest story that I've ever told.

No hope, or love, or glory.

A happy endings gone forever more.

I feel as if I'm wasted,

And I'm wasted everyday.

This is the way you left me.

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No happy ending.

This is the way that we love,

Like its forever.

Then live the rest of our life,

But not together.

Two o'clock in the morning,

Something's on my mind.

Can't get no rest,

Keep walking around.

If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong

I can get to my sleep

I can think that we just carried on.

This is the hardest story that I've ever told.

No hope, or love, or glory.

A happy endings gone forever more.

I fell as if I'm wasted,

And I'm wasted everyday.

This is the way you left me,

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No happy ending.

This is the way that we love,

Like its forever.

Then live the rest of our life,

But not together.

Little bit of love, Little bit of love,Little bit of love

This is the way you left me.
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending.

This is the way that we love,
Like its forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

This is the way you left me.
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending.

i love this song..

but till now i only know what its means in the Lyric..

2008-09-27T09:08:00.001+08:00

happy birthday my dear Eunice..

love you..

2008-09-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

happy birthday my dear..

love you..

2008-09-25T21:10:00.003+08:00

today went to pyramid watched MAMA MIA..

damn funny..

after all the rough time..

it is a relaxing movie for me to watch.. keke..

thanks to him.. haha..

my assignment extended again.. keke..

suppose due tomorrow..

SO.. i got two assignments and one presentation due after the holidays..

thats even worse off..

getting lazier.. haizz..

keke.. my maid coming back..

later go fetch her.. haha..

bye bye plates, cups, clothes, floor, toilet, plants, grass, haha...

many more.. can't think off now.. keke..

i just made a yummy cake..

don't know can eat anot..

if can thats your birthday present..

if can not.. then you choose your own present..

quick.. go pray to god..

pray "can not eat, can not eat"

haha..

2008-09-23T23:53:00.001+08:00

finally..

i deleted everything..

is time to let go..

haha..

happy..

move on to new life..

2008-09-23T16:42:00.002+08:00

my god..

i think i failed my oral test...

i answer two questions correctly..

then the rest don't know correct anot..

but got one question is wrong..

damn.. stupid oral test..

whole day never eat..

study like hell but useless..

just submitted an assignment..

my word limit over like hell man..

i submit edi only check..

damn... lec want 2000 words, i wrote 2800 words..

shit.. gonna die soon..

wth.. what is going on la..

wanna play with me..

come la.. challenge me.. Vann won't fall..

sorry of what i has said yesterday..

what i has said yesterday, maybe i can't do it as what i wish..

is that what i wish??

i don't know..

just stop, stop everything..

tonight rush another assignment again..

holidays rush another assignment and presentation again..

after that? end? no

rush for exam..

after that?..

work.. haha.. money money come.. save for US.. haha..

because of US give up something that i don't want to..

but have to..

i just can say sorry..

after work.. summer course started..

rush the same processes again..

gosh.. whatsoever, just enjoy the moment..

enjoy the busy days..

enjoy everyday..

i'm nonsensening.. keke..

yea.. i might going US end of this year.. haha..

but confirm i'm going Cameron Highland end of the year.. keke..

this sat going singapore..

hohoho..

getting my camcorder.. keke...

but i don't want edi.. auntie say go check it out first la.. haizz...

give me money better..

damn hungry.. i want food..

2008-09-22T20:38:00.002+08:00

i planned not to talk to her..

i'm very angry..

but she is in hospital now..

i forgive her..

i talk to her..

i make fun with her..

but still there are lots of question marks in my heart..

still hit is better than slap..

he make fun of my problem..

sadly but i do told him..

thats not funny..

tension till hand shaky.. body shaky even felt heart pain..

thats not fun..

everyday felt crying but force not to cry..

wanna give up of what am i doing now..

but still i can't

why?

i don't know..

i'm tired..

can't wait till friday..

everything gonna be fine..

don't worry my dear..

nothing can rule up my life..

2008-09-18T20:32:00.003+08:00

what the fuck.. fucking idiot..

this wan show face that wan slap me..

fucking group assignment..

everyday tension and scare..

i can't take it..

i don't wan to be here..

someone send me off..

i can't take it anymore..

i want to give up..

don't ask me.. don't call me.. don't even talk about it..

i don't want..

2008-09-14T12:18:00.003+08:00

i'm very happy that someone said wanna follow me to US..

i know you mean it..

and i do take it seriously..

haha.. so you can't run from it..

our mission now is save money..

2008-09-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

lulu left to UK for 2 days edi...

my friends are sad because there will be one year won't see each other.. and many more reasons..

me? i'm not sad.. don't have that feeling..

happy? yes.. i am but is happy for her..

glad she can achieve her dream..

as what i am thinking..

no matter how long we didn't see each other.. or keep in touch..

our friendship won't change..

don't know how is she now..

settle down everything edi?

this few days.. don't know what is going on??

vann just can't concentrate most everything..

day dreams has increased..

passion of doing things has decreased..

next 2 weeks.. all 4 assignments due and an oral test..

what is going on?

what am i doing?

no spirit, no concentration, no energy..

story brings up again.. i seem nothing.. but i'm not..

anyways thanks for asking me out or i ask you want ah? haha..

2008-09-08T21:07:00.004+08:00

today suppose to be a busy day..

but actually it was quite relaxing..

today MBC(monash business club) started their fundraising by selling Siew Bao..

i went to help out so that i can collect points to get a certificate...

it started from 10 to 2..

then because of Nicholas..

Birthday boy.. nic with his sunflower.. haha...

our plan for his birthday keep changing..

and i keep lying in front of him..

damn.. thats damn hard and very xin ku man...

however we still manage to celebrate with him.. haha...

but.. i skipped my lecture because of him.. never ever once skip that class before..

don't know today lecture teach what leh? tomorrow have to ask classmates..

just now i just checked all my time table for the assignments again..

guess what.. i got 3 assignments due on 22 sept and one oral test on 22 sept.. gosh.. before that i got one assignment due on 18 man.. dying dying dying soon... haha..

today i also had checked my exam time table..

let you guys know.. so you guys arrange when wanna go for the trip la..

23-10-08

29-10-08

30-10-08

31-10-08

6-11-08

after lulu fly off.. i think you guys won't see me for some times edi..

i need to start my studies..

lulu-gambate in UK and take good care yea... don't forget all our advises..

xia-stay good girl being at home for awhile.. then gambate for your work lo..

yee-gambate for your study and take good care in Kajang ooo..

sun-gambate for your study also and take good care of your voice.. keke..

guo loon-gambate in Australia and take good care oo.. i miss you eh...

bay and choung and sim leong and david.. no need write la.. they never read also.. keke..

see you guys tomorrow..

2008-09-07T21:22:00.002+08:00

this few days.. i keep on keep myself busy..

i don't know why.. just wanna make myself tired??

not to think so much??

yesterday went out with xia and lu.. at first i do not want to go out..

but alone at home.. make me feel bored and lonely..

this few days keep outing outing.. yes i'm happy but after that why time flies so fast..

and why i have to scare when i saw them? i do not know why.. heart beating fast and felt sour..

after all the conversation, i got a feeling why i have to call her.. this call had hurt her so much..

i'm so sorry.. i really don't mean it.. i just wanna you back.. since i know you till now.. you are always in my heart.. maybe our perception is different.. i'm the person who i got the heart then it is enough.. and i won't often saw it out.. as she say.. she know how to manage different people with different attitude..but i still haven't learn till that stages.. but will try.. so.. i want you give me a chance.. and to us.. since you give us so many chances why not another 1.. treat us like your family.. because family are always the one who forgive you first no matter what you did..

as they are your family, if the scar keep on kept in your heart.. somehow not only you will be hurt as well as your family..

as you said you know what is going on and what you know how to do.. but you still kept in your heart.. you need to had it all go out.. and try to forgive.. family are the only wan will not left you and always beside of you, helping you.. besides of thinking how they hurt you, why not think of how can you treat them better.. without thinking of feedback.. THINK.. the way you treating them now.. are you hurting them too? are you doing the same thing as they did too you? so the way of doing thing what is the different between you and them? do you want that?

i know how that feeling felt like.. that is terrible..

so since that time.. i learned not to do back the same things of what they did to me.. although i know seeing them back will felt uncomfortable, but still hurtful to myself better to others..

i want LG phone la..what is that model again ah? don't know LG K what 700 or 660?? both of that phone really a very nice phone.. quality of cause is there but just no value if wanna sell out.. samsung not bad as well.. haha.. just say.. i won't spend those money on that.. money for me is very hard only can save it..

2008-09-04T20:51:00.013+08:00

see the first pics.. very dark ho..

yesterday, we went to Puchong Shabu Shabu for dinner... its quite nice place and it was clean as the environment and the food.. everyone have their own pot.. then all the steamboat food are just like how Sushi King function.. food keep passing you.. and there are lots of varieties.. delicious... that is Ian.. same age as my bro..don't look like ho.. haha..

see how tall he is.. i need to knee down abit then can see his whole funny face..

this is easy.. no need to knee down at all.. he is so tall..
this is Chin.. another presidents assistance.. he bought us to a new place.. very very beautiful place..
this is Robert.. also another president's assistance..
this is my buddy.. notti and funny Brandon

~v~down.. that is Nicholas.. keke.. he don't look like what he suppose to look like.. keke..

Yin Yin.. she can't make it for the dinner... sad sad..

~v~ down.. that is Vicky.. like to take pics like Xia... haha..

four Black Buddy.. keke.. that is Anna..

guys group pics.. Brandon look so cute.. haha

all girls group pics...

everyone is there..

~v~down.. still remember the first pic.. that is how it look like.. the pic quality are not that good.. in fact.. by seeing it yourself.. that is really beautiful.. and i didn't know Puchong has a place like that.. i'm glad to know they all.. and happy of hang around with them... full of joy..

haha... it seem weird and abit ghostsy.. but its a nice pic though..

paul do not know how to smile in front of camera.. he is too shy.. so when taking this pics.. everyone are saying EEEEEEE... haha...

~V~down.. is a very very nice pic.. i love this pic.. keke.. i think we should go a place like this place where have nice scene.. so we can take nice pic together.. keke.. sound great? will check out about the place.. keke...

2008-09-01T22:50:00.006+08:00

i'm done of doing trade law assignment..

so blog for awhile la.. keke..

this is my granduncle and his wife.. a lovely couple.. we celebrated his 50 year old on sunday at Klang.. thats really a crazy night.. drank alot that day.. but still not drunk.. haha.. so still don't know what is my limit.. keke...

my family pics with birthday man.. keke...

this boy boy very cute.. everytime i see him.. he sure forget me wan.. but after awhile he will keep finding me... he love to play with me.. actually i love to play with kids..haha.. but he really hyperactive man.. play till i very tired..
this is the lovely couple family.. thats Alicia.. wei choung and (bay or guo loon) say very pretty wan.. keke... and thats Owen.. very handsome... we say he look like LeeHom wan.. last time he like to play with me.. when he was young and he called me koko.. haha..
pretty girls with my Singapore uncle.. he came back because of the dinner.. haha.. but its worth it.. cause of all the crazy night and family gathering...
thats my Singapore auntie...

with Thong Thong.. my ah yee.. haha...
with all my cousin and ah yee..
this is on sat night.. yee just came back from Kajang.. then went to Old town yam cha.. now left Sun sun haven't let me carry... keke...
cute leh... haha...
yee yee with her innocent look... haizzz... keke...
a group pics after 12 o'clock.. haha.. 31-08-2008...

2008-08-29T00:24:00.012+08:00

cute leh.. keke...

do you guys know what the feeling of taking a nap in friend's house?

today morning really is a terrible day..

vann vann sick terribly.. somemore library so damn cold..

lucky xia came to find me.. and gave me two panadols..

suppose have fever.. now getting better.. but i still don't like medicine..

then we went to pyramid for lunch at papa restaurant..

ate yummy chicken rice.. keke..

then walk around and around..

very tired.. then went to xia's house.. while waiting for Eunice.. i took a nap in Xia's house..

haha.. weird feeling but don't care edi..

i very tired and felt so sick.. after nap.. feeling much more better.. keke.. then went to yuen for dinner with Eunice Chu and her friends.. keep eat eat eat.. eat not stop.. that Eunice keep give me food.. give till i scare of her.. haha...

sick has taken away some of the taste of the food.. but its till tasty.. i wanna go back eat again. and that time i want TOM YAM.. keke..

Eunice Chu going back soon..

gonna miss her very very very much again... haizz..

but all the best yea..

must take good care..

see you next year..

and what i promise you will do so.. but don't know when...

i will do my best in US and hard working.. so can faster go visit you in UK.. haha..

i think that time got money buy ticket but no money for the rest of the things edi..

so you responsible lo.. haha...

2008-08-28T11:20:00.004+08:00

me warming up.. keke..

this is Choo, badminton president

this is Paul, president assistance

this is Melissa, play in mix double

this is Han, play in men double, crazy eater.. one person eat three people food.. crazy wan..

this is Nicholas.. play in mix double.. he is from SU oo.. keke..

Mr. Cool.. keke.. play in men double.. keep bully me wan.. everyone say he is cool, but actually he is not(he talk alots, keep ejak me).. his partner only are the one who really cool..

this is Anna, play in girl double.. i team up with her in the last match..

this is Vicky, play in girl double.. stay very very far(cheras).. it took president almost 1hour to send her back.. i stay in the car for 1 an a half hours.. crazy man..

you all know la.. Yin Yin.. keke..

this is Ian, play for the single..

this is Brandon.. my bro.. buddy.. haha.. get very close to him.. he very talkative.. but i guess he will be a very good coach..

2008-08-27T21:34:00.003+08:00

i skipped yesterday classes and today lecture and class..

when i called my daddy say i wanna go home..

i though mama will scold me.. but she didn't

when she came in the car... the first thing is ask is how am i? do i need medicine?

but haha.. vann vann no need to drink cause never buy.. keke.. vann don't like medicine..

so daddy went to buy coconut drink..

i had noticed that mama has changed alot..

last time she won't say those concern words and will scold me if i never go class..

i asked myself is that because my changes lead to her changes?

last time i don't study but now i do?

last time i do things immature but now will think and do things without making people worry..

i started to manage my own timing..

yesterday i had cut all the grass.. then i told mama this morning i have dinner on thursday night.. then she say why i have so many entertainment..

keke.. i said' i know how to manage my time, i have done all my things even had cut the grass..

haha.. she said' no wonder so kuai la.. keke.. yala..

daddy say.. good.. go la..

but don't know can go anot..

vann vann terribly fall a sick..

but i wanna go so much.. will go.. but will watch out my mouth.. haha..

yeah.. my auntie coming back this sat.. i miss her family so much..

she come back because this coming sunday my granduncle celebrating his 50 year old birthday..

its gonna be crazy night again with all the drinking session and sing k session.. keke..

gonna be on stage again.. sing and dance and drink.. with all the fun.. keke.. lim, lee, wong family gather again.. crazy party.. haha..

i miss you guys dear.. wanna have another gathering like sun's party.. its gonna be fun.. relax and peaceful.. keke.. but not with that type of movie again..

ok la.. i need to do law assignment.. crazy assignment.. gonna die soon..

bb...

2008-08-22T12:07:00.003+08:00

sick sick edi..

xia ask me.. if you sick will you still go for the competition..

if you sick then ma can go sun's house early lo..

haha.. no doubt.. i will still go.. i told xia..

and i can prove to xia.. i will still go no matter i'm sick..

xia say.. then you faster lose then ma can go sun's house early lo..

sorry.. as my attitude, i won't give up.. and once i decided to do.. i will do my best..

keke.. badminton end at 9.. will come asap.. ok..

see you guys tonight..

2008-08-21T22:47:00.003+08:00

been talking to friend about him..

he is the only person which makes Vann cried for uncountable times..

i think last night would be last time..

love someone doesn't mean has to be together..

if love a person, he/she won't say something which are immature, directly hurt that person..

'just pretend you never ever met me' don't you ever thought this sentence are so childish and hurtful to someone who still love you..

i tried to give you what you want since we together..

but problems, arguments, quarrels have stopped my way to you and push me backward..

what i have said yesterday was really mean and hurtful..

but thats the only way that we can let go each other..

and it is forever i'm the one who started the issue..

so just continues let me be the bad one..

angry of i don't appreciate what you did..

i can just say sorry, i can't and i don't know how..

wall between us has stopped me..

i can't reach you.. tiring of keep trying..

i think you are as well..

2008-08-21T21:25:00.004+08:00

finally i have some entertainment today...

been busy for assignments and presentation..

everyday discussion was really tiring..

everyday wake up at 6, leave the house at 7, reach uni at 8 something..

whole day at uni till 6, go home help mom cook, wash plates, water the plants..

8o'clock start doing my assignment..

today.. i gave myself a break.. went uni very early but never go class..

sat at cafeteria, listen to music and feel the wind blow.. relax but mind was not..

however, i love the weather and enjoyed..

after that, called xia but she haven;t wake up.. till around 10 something she called..

then i took a taxi went to her house..

chat for awhile, started my assignment again.. can;t stop doing it no matter where am i..

however, i just did it for awhile.. cause my back started to pain again.. that was terrible feeling.

suppose to wait for lulu come and fetch us to pyramid for a movie..

but somehow she is not feeling well.. get well fast yea.. drink more water my dear.. take care..

then we decided to take taxi to pyramid..

we walked out to get a taxi.. xia said it remind us about schooling days.. poteng school to ss19, ss15, ss14.. those memory for unforgettable..keke..

BUT.. damn we can't get a taxi.. raining somemore (romantic ho) i want to kill someone that time.. keke.. but i didn't.. i just keep nag nag nag.. keke...

so we walk to teylor to get taxi..

don't know what is the hell taxi doing.. no need to work ah..

somemore kena kau kau from the taxi man..

RM7 from teylor to pyramid.. damn RM7 you know.. the xia somemore don't let me know how much.. faster ask me go in.. haizz... stupid taxi man.. student money also cheat..

anyway... i got to watch a very very very nice movie.. 'Penelope' wanna watch second time.. really really really very sweet lovely movie.. too bad lu missed it..

you guys must go watch.. don't miss it...

i heard from xia that Sammi Cheng is coming to Malaysia for concert..

i wanna go.. i must go..

but when is it? how much? i need work..

i must go.. my first time going concert must give her.. MUST MUST MUST..

who wanna go?

my lovely Sammi Cheng wait for me.. count me in.. i will be there.. no matter how..

keke.. ok la.. continue my assignment..

tomorrow is my badminton competition and sun's gathering..

must faster finish and 100% enjoy tomorrow..

see you guys tomorrow..

miss you la Guo Loon.. haizz..

take care ooo my dear..

2008-08-16T20:09:00.002+08:00

gardening (cut grass) started again..

i'm very tired and body aching now..

haizz...

came back from uni not long then started.. never really rested..

tired.. but mom don't bother... haizz.. she just want her garden look beautiful..

just want me to help her done her job..

i don't want bungalow, semi-d, or any houses which have garden..

i want apartment.. which has all the facility which i want..

and of cause must stay in luxury and beautiful apartment..

get closer to rich and handsome man.. haha..

but if the garden done by my husband or maid.. keke.. i don't mind have garden..

tomorrow is my captain ball competition.. keke..

but body aching now.. don't know tomorrow will pain anot..

this sem are really no time to rest..

lots of assignment.. presentation.. homework..

no tv, no movie in com, no game, all no no no.. haizz.. but do go out often during break time..

but tired.. nothing much to do.. just eat eat eat.. walk walk walk.. see see see.. see people buy buy buy... it seem people money so easy to earn.. but do they really need to spent it.. haizz..

all are so materiality, most important things is internal not external..

but sometime i do.. haha.. thanks to designer, marketer.. keke...

next wed presentation due, next friday assignment due..

monday morning discussion for ibs presentation.. afternoon discuss mrm assignment.. maybe evening got training.. at night? do presentation or assignment..

tuesday? no idea.. continues with discussion? yes it will.. because? late minute group member..

damn.. i hate the attitude.. anyway.. their life.. all the best with their attitude in their whole life... don't kacau me can edi.. thursday? keke.. go watch wall-e with my cousins, xia and kel.. haha.. i will make SURE i finish my mrm assignment.. then can go.. happy.. my little cousin first time in cinema gonna give me... haha.. i took his bro want also.. haha.. and the bro love me so much.. haha.. if he notti.. i will threaten him by saying.. "notti again.. don't want bring you to cinema again.. haha.." bad vann vann right.. keke.. who ask him notti..

next friday, sat and sun is my badminton competition.. it been awhile i didn't play...

so no enough stamina and not really good edi.. i'm so disappointed at myself..

but i will do the best.. respect the opponent, respect the game, respect the badminton..keke..

but sun.. i will be late to your house.. hope you won't angry..

i will be late.. but i will be there.. no matter how late..

cause you are my very very very important darling big sister... keke..

so see you guys soon..

miss you all so much.. keke..

and i want to eat steamboat's food..

so don't finish all.. keep abit for me..

make sure don't let that big eater choung eat my share.. keke...

take care la my dears...

2008-08-12T21:52:00.003+08:00

gosh.. what is going on on VannVann

tired.. sleepy..

but can not sleep..

assignment due soon..

but i have no mood to write..

i have all the material..

but it just can't get in my mind..

haizz... go get something nice to drink..

then start again..

bb..

miss you guys so much..

will see you all next week gathering.. my dears..

keke.. take care la..

2008-08-07T23:12:00.009+08:00

today went for a hair cut..

that was damn short..

everyone say i look cute.. damn..

even Chin Yew also said that..

damn.. WHY that damn CUTE word appear on me again..

haiz.. time!time!time!.. How long i have to wait till my hair long again???

gathering at Old Town.. saw lots of old friends there.. besides our group gathering.. its seem more like Subang Utama gathering.. keke.. i miss you Ku Gou Loon.. go back also never give me a call.. bad la you.. msn never reply.. notti la you..

haha... carried her at pyramid.. just for fun.. keke.. but she is heavy.. so thin but heavy..

xia started first.. carried her at pyramid too.. same also.. damn heavy.. weird doh.. so thin but damn heavy..

went for the captains ball.. carried her when waiting for the bus.. she is taller then lu and xia.. but not that heavy than both of them.. thats why is weird.. keke... carry Eunice Chu is just a piece of cake.. but both of them no thanks edi.. keke... unless i get fatter.. but.. no thanks too.. and i'm putting on weight this few days.. keep eating only.. like a pig.. eat not stop.. this have to thanks to a guy.. shit.. have to eat less... if not all the clothes can not wear.. i ma very cham.. and fat not nice la.. head small, body big.. gosh.. don't imagine.. damn..

guess where am i? what time izzit?

this was my first time woke up so early went for Mcd breakfast.. erm.. 5.30a.m.. haha.. the mood was not bad.. very fresh in the morning.. but i look sleepy.. keke.. my eyes still sleepy.. looks damn small.. but the food is yummy.. thanks to Eunice jie jie.. keke..

finally, Vann went to Genting, wished for so long.. and finally Vann enough age to go in CASINO.. haha.. its nice to gambling .. but i don't like the environment.. damn smoky and smelly.. can't stand of the smell..

haha.. we manage to win RM50 in CASINO... and our expenses in Genting was RM0 and still left some money..

went to play those childhood game.. haha.. one day trip to Genting was no enough time.. wanna stay there longer.. keke.. will go again soon.. haha..

i ask mom when can bring me to Genting's CASINO..

will bring Vann there but not now.. soon.. after ghost festival.. keke.. parents bring will be better.. got money to play and there are lots of game don't know how to play.. haha.. daddy can teach.. keke.. but no worries.. Vann know how to control herself.. won't addicted in it.. but there are someone that i don't know will he.. haha.. he won't la.. thats what he promised.. so.. break promise again?

.......

i heard get a Visa is very hard..

almost all my friends have difficulty of getting and so worried about it..

i hope next year getting a Visa not that difficult for me..

but why must interview for going US?? haizz..

i suppose reading journals for my assignment..

but two pages already started killing me..

but still have to finish.. if not can not go Eunice's house..

so.. night night my all dears..

2008-08-03T22:18:00.003+08:00

my tears drop..

not because i'm sad..

it just because i'm happy and touched..

i know i'm not 100% best friend..

because i know i didn't do enough as a best friend job..

but you guys are really my 100% best friend.. forever..

no matter when, where, how long we didn't see each other..

all this friendship forever nail in my heart..

no matter how far are you.. my heart always have you and always there for you..

your hardworking, encouraged me not to give up..

your dream and hope, lead me to go forward and lead me to follow your step..

your toughness, can either be a good thing or bad thing.. i might not a good listener and adviser.. but whenever you need me.. i will be there for you..

eat proper meal my dear.. don't fall a sick again..

drive carefully my dear, as xia say don't bam here bam there..

stand up my dear, bring back your full energy and smile..

study hard my dear, all the best for your exam.. i trust you..

get well fast my dear.. don't eat those you not suppose to eat..

gambate my dears..

i will do my best too..

keke.. take care la..

2008-08-02T20:48:00.003+08:00

today went to pc-fair to buy pendrive for me, sis and bro..

but main reason is to go see Eunice and Bay.. keke..

buy a pendrive doesn't cost much in Subang..

but drive to KLCC is really costly..

but the cost not on me.. keke..

erm.. suppose to be.. but someone don't know how to go KLCC..

so forced to take MALAYSIA train at the KLcentre..

damn.. you guys should know Vann damn hate MALAYSIA train..

so... this will be my last time take MALAYSIA train..

whoever ask me take train.. no friend..

boyfriend also same.. break up on the spot..

damn.. stupid MALAYSIA train... hate it..

but when we are in the train.. my bro damn sayang me.. haha.. he hold me damn tight.. like my bf only.. keke.. but still.. i hate MALAYSIA train..

anyway.. i got to buy a hard disk in pc-fair.. very very cheap...

500GB for just RM325.. keke...

besides that, i saw a very nice phone.. got blue and pink.. i love the blue colour..

but the phone is china phone.. so quality not that good.. but it just cost RM399..

so big different with iphone.. haizz... damn..

MONEY GOD..MONEY GOD.. faster come to me.. haha...

my dears.. ghost month has arise.. so don't go out at night..

drive carefully and take care yea..

gambate my dear.. SMILE >..<

2008-07-28T23:44:00.004+08:00

i suppose blog it last night..

but because something wrong to my connection..

so here you go now..

last week was quite busy..

but i can't remember busy with what.. haha

erm.. let me think..

school days..

assignment..

went grandma's house..

chit chat with uncles and aunties..

play with cousins..

outing with friends..

copa iba competition..

haha.. come to that.. got huge story..

previously i got hurt on my leg because of the training..

then competition that day, hurt it again.. and get some new hurt.. keke..

but i'm fine..

so no need worry.. especially Eunice jie jie..

my head is fine.. if i felt something wrong, i will call you first..

i'm enjoy with the games..

happy, funny, pain, all the concern, sweetness from Eunice jie jie.. keke.. and haha.. got handsome kor kor.. haha.. don't know is kor kor or ti ti.. keke..

i'm not regret of joining..

yea.. not planning to go scan my head edi..

is damn exp.. it would be around rm1000++..

gosh.. that is real expensive..

but no worries la..

Eunice jie jie told me all the symptoms..

and i don't have all those effects..

keke.. Vann Vann head very keras wan..

but leg is still pain.. and i can't walk much.. keke..

but i have to walk.. keke.. tomorrow go shopping with Eunice jie jie..

happy happy.. have been waited for so long..

miss outing with her..

miss her so much, very very much.. keke.. sound les.. Eunice always ask that.. haha..

to me is.. jie jie sayang mei mei.. hehe...

and i want forever like that..

but someone have to sayang more on someone..

haha...

last sunday.. i took a very funny pic..

see how it die!!! standing eh... keke... outside my house.. haha...

my house's flower.. isn't it beautiful..

2008-07-20T21:36:00.004+08:00

today woke up very early to clean up the house..

from 9 till 1..

then went to Giant.. keke.. buy yummy milk again..

then went to sport planet for captain ball training..

from 2 till 5.. next week is the competition, so fast.. i only trained for one day.. and i'm so shitty, not as good as last time.. hope i will have 100% good condition on that day.. must score.. it would be the last year for Eunice and might for me too.. cause she not there.. keke..

damn tired now..

damn sleepy..

but, i was very happy my Eunice jie jie is there..

keke.. i miss her so much.. we gave each other a big hug.. a long long hug..

welcome back.. keke..

graduated in law.. i felt proud for her.. hehe..

today i fell down.. is not really pain.. but when it touched water and medicine..

that is real pain.. gosh..

keke.. but no big deal..

and i'm enjoyed..

not i enjoyed the pain..

enjoyed the concern..haha..

there are so sweet, damn sayang me and my grandma's look so cute.. keke..

mama will voice up her voice faster go put medicine..

daddy say, play ball also play until like that, play for what.. haha

guess what i answered..

you all play manjong play until body pain, play for what.. keke..

they are playing manjong with my singapore aunt and china uncle.. my uncle laugh damn loud..

keke.. anyway i never get any huge hurt before.. haha...

ok la, i need to put medicine again.. grandma's ordered me..

keke.. so cioa..

take care my dear..

2008-07-16T10:12:00.004+08:00

i'm facing my problems..

making some changes..

but i have been stopped..

this advice that advice..

advice is just advice..

the full details only i will understand..

the feeling of mine where nobody can understand..

sorry for disagree..

i should stop now?

but why can't vann stop..

just stop..

this is because, why should i stop..

i don't need to forget, i don't need to force myself as like other..

i do not need to keep all the stuff like other..

although it brings memory but it is all good..

this all i can accept, i do not need to forget..

if i do so, what is the point.. it is too cruel, ain't you love him..

i take away all the stuff, but i can't take away the fact..

so what is the point?

to get a new start..

i throwed away all the unhappy past..

but it is only my personal thought but not for other..

for my attitude, i can get suit to it very fast and continues happy life..

but it is not for other..

thinking past doesn't help anything..

but make changes now do help..

and i'm doing so..

gambate my dear..

2008-07-14T22:00:00.007+08:00

i'm in a bad mood..

very bad..

i'm very sleepy..

but can't sleep..

caused my emotion very terrible..

making a decision is very tough and undecidable..

however, the decision seem don't bring any happiness to you..

it might be good for others but not yourself..

is that a good decision..

remember, you live not because of others although you need to concern about them..

but once decision made.. you must not have regret feeling..

however, changes still can be made..

is all depend on you..

today i received a call from monash..

the lady told me that i can take 5 subjects..

however i'm not happy but worry..

can i handle??

i know i can, cause once i started i will finish it till end..

but will my effort can get what i wants..

talk to two lecturers, they say i can do it..

just i will have no time for any social life..

i'm scare one of the marketing subject..

it a whole idea of how to plan your marketing planning..

there will be a project where i need to plan a whole real marketing planning for the company..

sound fun but tough..

my US plan might have abit changes..

due to some reason..

it might cancel..

no matter how.. i will still follow my plan..

don't shake..

erm.. i wanna play game now.. keke..

www.viwawa.com

not bad..

take care my dear..

2008-07-11T22:17:00.010+08:00

11.11

mostly everyday saw it..

good or bad??

don't know..

hot to cold..

very cold..

don't like..

say this but do that..

what is the reason??

don't know..

don't like..

can't sleep well..

don't feel like sleeping

turn left turn right, center..

reason??

don't know..

eyes is burning..

lips burning, cracking..

back started again..

don't like..

anyway, today i enjoyed "the journey to the center of the earth" it was much more better than "wanted" keke... went pyramid again with xia, because of my uni stuff again.. haha..

excuse?? maybe.. keke.. but i enjoyed the day with her.. i want more..

TGIF

happy weekend my dear..

TTFN

2008-07-10T22:59:00.003+08:00

today is my sis's birthday.. happy birthday to her.. keke..

today went to uni settle my subject unit.. it just took me for 20minutes.. then i have to wait xia and lu for 1hour.. that was really damn long.. wait till i wanna sleep.. after that went to pyramid for lunch at kimgary... i was damn noisy and keep bugging lulu... haha.. that was fun but scare she will angry.. but i know she won't.. keke.. 66days only you know.. i started to miss you edi.. what is going be after 66days.. haizz.. haha.. but still must go.. haha.. gambate..

after that went to watch "wanted" erm... not really good.. abit bored.. but i like Angelina..keke.. today i finally found a ring damn nice.. although is 50%off.. but it is still too expensive not worth it at all.. haha.. but let see how.. keke.. i need work.. i need money.. vann damn broke..

celebrated sis's birthday at taipan for dinner.. Korean bbq.. but i went wrong restaurant.. haha.. but still the food was very good.. service was damn good(only us in the restaurant.. till when we wanna finish edi only got one customers, so all the workers are serving us.. haha.. i bao the whole restaurant.. haha).. my mom ordered two different bottles of wine.. one is rice wine and another one is raspberry wine.. erm.. it taste better than beer and wine.. so for me.. it is really taste damn good.. i bring back the bottles too.. haha... for collection..

however today got a good news and a bad news for me..

good news was i passed all my subjects..(mom congrat me i congrat her also.. save money.keke)

bad news was i might delay half a sem.. means half year..

cause my result was no enough credits for me to take 5 subjects next sem..

but still tomorrow have to go uni again.. see whether they allow to me take anot.. keke..

so wish me luck... haha..

and good luck and all the best my dear..

and Happy Birthday to my dear sister again.. keke...

2008-07-07T22:03:00.003+08:00

i've done what i should do..

i've done all my promises..

so it should be end now..

this maybe was really fate.. all have been arranged..

as what you said.. and i'm agree because of all the coincidences..

maybe all you said are correct.. but i'm just don't trust..

actually not don't want to trust just don't want to listen..

i'm just too ngan keng le..

because i think there are still hope..

but hope??

haha.. don't know..

life are like that.. happy and sad..

this is what i wanna go through.. real tough time..

this way i only can grown up..

correct anot??

go through those.. life will be colourful..

trust me.. life are colourful..

so +oil my dear..

2008-07-05T16:21:00.002+08:00

whole body damn pain..

damn lazy to go out..

besides that, i'm confuse.. complicated feeling..

haha..

but what i had promised must do right..

this is what i should do now..

so don't care other things first..

ok la.. should get ready now..

2008-07-05T02:21:00.002+08:00

today surprise are really a big surprise.. haha...

today went to pyramid to buy bay's birthday present..

and because of that present i joined Padini's member..

so wanna buy shirt let me know.. member card can take anytime.. keke..

that shirt was really very nice.. love it.. who wear it will look damn smart and handsome..

haha.. and i'm happy and glad that bay love it.. and he said that the shirt is the most favorites present..and someone's present for him is second.. haha.. and she was angry about it(just acting and jk)keke.. he gonna wear it for his first day work.. means tomorrow.. haha.. damn proud.. saw lots of old friends during the surprise party too.. i'm glad he is back and still we the same "car" haha.. you guys get what i mean la.. haha...

the most surprised me was he's back.. miss him so much.. another things which made me glad was he is fine.. and it still the old time him.. but just felt abit weird when comes eye to eye.. maybe he have things to ask or tell.. but the most important things is you are there.. and i'm always welcome you back to my heart.. haha(a song's name "welcome back to my heart").. big sister are still big sister.. but she became more and more yellow.. and also her blog.. damn funny.. pictures also took.. and also follow the graphic girl.. that is not wu liao is bai chi lo.. haha.. bear on me.. but is really true.. keke.. he is still him.. funny, bai chi, wu liao, from don't know mana punya earth.. haha.. always kena targeted.. especially from yellow girl and prawn.. haha.. but really brings us lots of happy moments.. fat fish not longer a fat fish.. and also not that talkative edi.. but she is still her.. my si yu(maybe she is going in someone car.. erm.. not going in.. touching la..haha.. what a big surprise huh?).. get well fast yea.. aunty are still aunty.. she is really an aunty.. but when come to driving, prawn and vann are aunty.. haha.. don't know way still want to drive faster than people and cut people car.. what la you!! haiz... ye ye ah.. erm.. don't smoke so much and drive slowly la.. this is what he promise to me.. so hope he really keep his promise.. Prawn.. i don't know whether when can i finish the book.. keke.. maybe as what you said.. read half way slept.. but maybe no need half way.. 1 sentence already dying(jk but don't have, haven't touch yet.. but will finish, since is your hard work).. haha.. anyone else haven't say?? erm.. no la..

some places are really brings back me some memories.. those are happy memories.. so.. keke..

once again..

happy birthday my dear Bryan Bay.. love you.. muack..

give some happiness to you all.. i was almost masuk his car, almost ah never masuk.. haha.. i just touched his car door and it is also same situation for fish.. haha...

night night guys..

take care yea..

2008-07-02T21:01:00.004+08:00

i had made the decision and i had followed my decision..

this decision is real tough and hard to speak it out..

the fear, tension, sadness..

the feeling of heart can't take it, body shaking and even voice..

but still i had said it out..

i didn't expected it will end peacefully..

and his thought finally 100% correct..

i think this is really hurt him..

i choose not to cry because it is useless..

so i guess it is fine..

i'm fine..

so don't worry..

can't being a couple but still can be best friend..

and this decision may be the best for both of us..

life isn't just that right..

you are the best guy i ever met..

thank you so much..

so don't blame yourself.. because you didn't do any wrong..

you already done all your best.. this is what everyone can see it.. include me..

and yea.. FINALLY, i can wear the shoe.. haha..

thanks.. take care my dear..

2008-06-30T20:34:00.003+08:00

thanks for all my dear friends.. thanks for the concern.. keke.. happy happy..

last friday went to visit my uncle's father's funeral..

i realize that, people behaviour are so weird..

last time people always say that, girl married out means are out from their own house..

but for now, guy are the wan who out from the house..

i myself are closer to my mom side,

my uncle family also are closer to our side,

during my granduncle and great grandmother funeral, we are so sad..

i'm sad but also glad that, our relationship with relative are getting closer and closer..

maybe not for others, but yes for me.. at least i get closer to them..

but when i went to my uncle's father's funeral..

my cousin still can smile to me.. and even uncle (his own father eh) and auntie too..

haha.. i'm thinking how come they still can smile..

and my cousins are happy we are there, because after prayers(4times a day), they don't know what they can do, and where they can go..

they say they are not close to their relative, one year see once only..

how come like that..

will this happen on me too?

we are not close to my father's side..

but we are not so terrible, not one year see once..

must ask them out often.. get closer..cause they all part of my family..haha

haha.. meet them also got benefit ooo...

got chocolates.. haha.. they love to give us chocolates..

but too bad i don't often eat..

too sweet.. don't like.. keke.. see this is how vann never take care of herself.. doctor say must eat more sweet food.. but vann don't like, vann like sour and spicy food..haha..

but now my room have lots of sweets and snacks.. haha.. this have to thanks to kel, abby and jess.. keke.. but haha.. never touch eh.. keke.. sorry la.. will eat.. but slowly la.. kel's duty is damn free.. haha... no need to masuk stocks(wallet also happy.. haha)... keke...

yesterday help my mom do the income tax things.. haha.. although is busy but quite happy.. haha.. cause can help mom and mom will keep on call fang fang fang.. haha.. then went to grandma's house, watch badminton matches with my grandma.. haha.. do you guys know that the Malaysia's badminton player Petty Wong is my senior, we used to train together and played with her before also, double up with her too..keke.. miss the old times.. cause i have challengers.. keke... suppose to go parkson yesterday, jess say got sales ooo.. but have to wait mom come back from Kl.. however, too late, end up didn't go and mom never submit the income statement also, cause never open.. haha.. stupid hoo.. kena from me.. haha.. cause ask her to call got open anot she don't want, finally called but the customer service say open till 10.. but don't know why close also.. stupid customer service.. waste people petrol and time.. especially my shopping time.. damn..haizz... haha...

and for today, whole day watch movie, and cook mee with my sis.. haha.. yummy.. till now haven't eat.. not hungry yet.. keke..now feel sleepy edi.. so maybe just go sleep.. haha..

today also did something which i shouldn't do.. but i didn't know that it will end up this way..

i should just listen to xia.. but i didn't.. cause i felt weird if i don't do so.. but this result has influence my mind again.. i hope i can be tough and follow my previous decision..

ok. cioa.. take care my dear friends..

so sorry

2008-06-24T20:52:00.002+08:00

今天做了几件错的选择。。

谁说好心有好报。。

我的选择却害了朋友。。

因为某些reason。。

asked him to fetch me..

but cause him car accident..

i'm so sorry..

because of me, made her felt tension before her exam..

i'm so sorry..

and because of me again..

wasted his and her' precious time..

so sorry..

and because of me again..

cause her late for her appointment..

and because of me again..

made wrong decision for the movie..

i'm really sorry..

今天的害怕，担心，伤心却不比他给我的痛心。。

这次真的累了。。

一次又一次的机会。。

却给他一次又一次的取走了我给的机会。。

in return却是一次又一次的伤心，失望。。

2008-06-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

during exam was so desperate of using com..

but, now after exam edi.. don't even wanna touch com..

just wanna sleep sleep sleep..

but still can't get enough sleep..

can't sleep..

tired tired tired..

head felt very heavy this few days..

stomach not feeling well too..

don't know why..

i have lots of things need to blog..

but exam period took me to long..

and i don't have the mood to blog edi..

and don't know what to write edi..

today i unpacked all the present..

but i still put it on the floor..

cause i do not know where should i put..

cause my room full of books now..

and don't dare to throw it away..

scare i will fail again..

and i can't afford to fail anymore..

fail any of one subject, i need to delay half a year..

this delay will delay my plan to US for my MBA...

and i don't know whether will it all follow my plan..

cause i felt blur now.. it like i'm dreaming..

and i do not know what is my target anymore..

i need to find back my target..

but there are still a problem i need to solve it..

this problem needs great courage..

this refresh my mind of "To hold not to Take"

and i hope this time i also can do that again..

this might be the best choice..